⊕Allen (part II)

There are two other Allen that I met so far.

One is the little boy next to my house. He is as old as my son.
My son likes to play with him and his sister in front of our house.
It was fun watching them play and communicate using kids'
language.

Next one is one of my son's classmate. I guess he is
the tallest in the class. I used to think of him as a kid with
a temper. After volunteering some tasks in the class,
I found him a kid with a tender heart. His expression
of feelings is direct. He would give me a big grinning
smile or give me a big hug as a surprise.

I happened to see him pat goats in the Ardenwood farm.
It was such a gentle manner of Allen's. He was like talking
to the goat, then he told me the goat was sad. I looked
at the goat and felt his words true. From then on, I felt the
bridge between me and Allen was built.

I don't know why I wrote these about the three Allens.
This driver reminded me the first Allen, and the second, and the
third Allen I know of. So I felt like writing something about them.
That's all.

My bless to all three of you, Allen.

⊕Allen (part I)

Today when I was driving, the driver in front of me looked like
one of my ex-coworkers. His name is Allen. The image of the
driver's back reminded me of Allen.

Allen seemed to go to work early everyday, as early as like 6 am.
I wonder what he was doing so early? I had no intersection
with Allen at work until the end of that particular year.
There was a fund-raising/gift donation campaign that both of
us volunteer to involve to some activities.

We met, discussed, then made an appointment for our next meeting.
It was then I knew Allen came to work so early.

Usually Allen was modest, polite, and not talkative.
He was always on-time, punctuate. He seemed to be
a very self-discipline person and also wanted people
to treat him the same way.

One time after our discussion, he told me,
"Could you please not wear perfume, because
I have $%^&*, the smell of perfume is not good
for my body?"

In another occasion, everybody was in a team-building class.
A colleague was playing a joke on him and this person didn't know
he had offended him. Allen suddenly stood up, said something loudly
to this person, walked out of the classroom, and left the rest of
the class speechless.

I lost my contact with Allen after leaving the company.

The image of the driver's back this morning reminded me of Allen.

⊕ 我們的人生真的是自己"想"出來的

今天收到卡內基訓練電子報, 讀到一段Dale Carnegie的話,
覺得人生真是如此, 我們的人生真的是自己"想"出來的!

想到自己參加卡內基的訓練後, 想法及內心的改變, 後又再參加一次學長訓練, 當了ㄧ期的學長,
覺得收穫到的似乎比付出的還多! 而且了解到我們現在所遭遇的種種情況, 其實自己都要負責任,
都是源自於自己內心思考的展現. 也因為卡內基訓練, 我的世界又多了好多扇窗, 更明亮, 更快樂!
卡內基訓練啟蒙了我人生的另一個階段.
只要時間允許, 還想要再回去當學長.

Received the e-news from Carnegie Training today.
I feel so true while reading Dale Carnegie's quotes: Our thoughts create us. We have the control of how we want our life to be.

Ever after attending the training course from Dale Carnegie, I felt the change of myself inside out. I then became one of the class assistants for one later course.
I felt myself "receive" more than "give". Through these trainings, I also realize
that no matter what we are facing in our life, we have the responsibility to it.
What we are is the manifest of our thoughts. Because of the training from Dale Carnegie institute, I felt my world was opening up more windows to me with brighter and happier perspectives.

Dale Carnegie Training really changes my life, and opens up the next stage of my life to me.

If I am available, I would like to be its class assistant again.

It's a feeling of growing myself and at the same time helping others to grow, to become a better self.


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有一次戴爾卡內基先生接受廣播節目的採訪，主持人請他用幾句話說明所學到最重要的教訓。

戴爾卡內基先生說：「這對我一點都不難，我所學到最重要的一課是，我們的想法是多麼的重要。如果我了解你的想法，我就能知道你是個怎麼樣的人，因為你是你自己思想的產物。只要改變想法，我們就能改變人生。」

我深深地相信人類最大的問題，事實上也可能是我們唯一的問題，就是選擇正確的思想。只要我們能作到這一點，什麼問題都能迎刃而解。曾經統治羅馬帝國，本身又是哲學家的馬可斯奧里亞斯只用了兩句話，這兩句話可以決定你的命運：「我們的思想，決定了我們的人生。」

沒錯，快樂的思想令人快樂；愁苦的思想令人難過；恐懼的思想令人害怕；病態的思想可能令人生病。想著失敗，我們很難成功。沉溺在自憐中，又怎能不令人退避三舍？

我在提倡樂觀主義嗎？不，不是的。人生很不幸地並非那麼單純。不過，我願以最強烈的語句倡導，我們一定要以積極的思想取代消極。

戴爾卡內基

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程式設計師沒了程式

今天的我像垂頭喪氣的公雞, 中午沒留神竟不小心把尚未驗證的程式碼check-in,
結果同仁依例在中午過後重新部署系統, 然後當然馬上就發現了這個500 error!

沒想到要置換回前一版的程式一直無法成功, 這個功能又很多人在用,
最後就把這功能先關閉, 然後主管開會回來就叫另一個同事接手這幾個功能,
也就是說, 這幾個我鑽研一年多的功能, 就在上線後, 從此不再是我維護.

當然, 我還有其他的功能, 但我只感覺到: 程式設計師沒了程式, 就像寫書法的人
沒了毛筆, 空空的感覺, 心裡很難過.

我得想辦法鼓勵自己.

some ideas

2007/10/23:

想法:

如何產生負離子

如何預防電磁/幅射波

當家教?

昨晚寶寶睡了後, 去看了一些外包的資訊, 結果不知怎麼就連到教育網,
我選了所在地區的家教需求看了一下, 發現竟有這麼多英文家教的需要,
當下真有衝動想去接這些cases, 不過得先成為他們的會員, 也就是說, 要填一
堆資料, 這讓我延遲了一下, 也給了我轉念思考的時間...

這麼多人希望自己(孩子)的英文好, 找家教, 而我的英文可以算說不錯, 在國外求學
工作快十年, TOEIC多益的分數也算高, 955分. 與其去為別人上課,
我何不將時間花在自己的寶寶上? 這也是親子時間的一部份啊~

何況, 今天的新聞裡也看到, 很多家長鼓勵自己的孩子唸古文, 其實寶寶小
的時候, 我還有帶他唸一些, 後來就沒再唸了. 我認為屬於國粹的東西, 不可
偏廢, 這是我們文化血液的一部份, 若沒能好好吸取耕耘, 是很可惜的.

很累 Bored

覺得很懶 很無力
I feel tired, bored, lack of energy

很想離開目前工作 卻又不知下一步能做什麼
want to quit my current position..but don't know what to do next

心很累
I feel powerless

看到雜誌最近的一篇文章 訴說擔心被資遣/工作職務喪失/...等等年齡漸漸提早
read an article from a magazine, saying that the age of worrying about being laid off/position being replaced by others, ..etc is getting earlier.

這和我最近的感覺有些類似 不過 我主要是不想再做研發程式設計了
This is somewhat similar to what I have being feeling recently
However, what I mainly concern is..I need to get out of the programming life.

也想休耕一陣子 想好好整理自己 想過生活
I'd like to take a break for awhile
I'd like to get myself organized
I'd like to live my life

我覺得很累
I'm so tired

想做創意 但自己有創意嗎? 能怎麼做呢
可當成工作嗎?
I'd like to be in the creativity area, but...am I creative?
How to?
Could it be my career? part of my career or all of my career?

想為周遭為社會做些事

想為周遭為社會做些事, 不想工作了.

覺得做的很沒意義, 工作對我來說是一種自我實現, 假如沒有這種感覺,
也不預期將來在這裡會有機會, 那我為什麼還要在此浪費時間?

想休耕一陣子.

Be focus

My interests are broad. For example, I like to read books, magazines, and websites in different subjects. I like subjects like (international)marketing, inspirational mindsets, working culture, software engineering, ethic, religious, creative innovation, electronic industry news, science, educational psychology, .., and so on. I like to listen to soft rock, natural, new era, and classical music. ...

However, my broad interests can be my disadvantages. Because I have insterests in so many things, I have many skills and knowledges. But, in current era, what I need is a domain knowledge. I mean, in my company, I guess, few people hold better English ability than I do and my bosses know that.
However, I feel that they don't care. What they want is a pure programmer who can write programs fast and efficient, and that's it. I like to do programming a lot, but I think it's almost the time that I should quit.

I want the feeling of achievement, being needed, and feeling able to contribute. But now, I don't have this kind of feeling.

․讀: "2006 十大服務業評鑑 多服務 1 ％就是贏家"

看了 "2006 十大服務業評鑑 多服務 1 ％就是贏家"(--遠見雜誌11 月號) ,
我覺得從服務業的品質可讀出一個國家的人文深度, 因為服務是為人而產生的,
越能從他人的角度出發服務, 越需要對人需求的深刻體察, 而這是貧富均化,
人民禮儀素養級距不大的社會, 才會開始反思及改變的一環.

因此, 在這個報導裡, 會看到大眾以為的五星級飯店,
卻在突擊查訪中敬陪末座; 而普羅百姓常光顧的７－１１, 卻排名第一
的矛盾現象, 其實多少也反應現今台灣社會的一些景況.　光鮮外麗的外表下,
是內心對平民簡單需求的冷漠, 甚或無情, 但自以為是的行事,
最終會瞞不過廣大消費者清明的心, 及公平的審判～

Some of my thoughts to share with you, my friend..

Wish you a week full of joyful moments.

2006/11/20